Sunday, 19 June 2016

Another year on and I've hit a speedhump :-(

Hello blog, my long lost friend. I've missed you longtime girlfriend :-)


I've not visited this blog for a year as my business world went mental. As a result I've hit a speedhump and had a blip with my lupus. Grrrr severe gnashing of teeth follows. Oh it gets me so cross. It sneaks up behind me and gives me a bite on the bottom just to remind me it's still there.


Oh I feel much better for that giant ROAR. 

So what has happened this past year? I've just self published my 2nd non-fiction book. Not a mean feat I know. Slightly over achieving. Bahahaha

Health wise there has been the usual mini drama's but nothing I felt like sharing till now! The sacro-iliac pain improved as did my ability to put my own socks and knickers on!! Thank goodness. It got so bad at one point that every time I turned over in bed I was shouting out in pain. Following a sub-total hysterectomy things dramatically improved. I've never been so happy to have a body part removed. I was really frightened of a major meltdown and it never happened. Somehow making that decision, and in the end I forced it because life was so intolerable, helped me move on from the what ifs of children to a whole new chapter. I was able now to pursue other things in my life. I actually feel liberated. Doesn't life surprise you at times?

Then next came the wisdom teeth...I'm still shuddering at that one. I got an infection post op and it was the single worst thing that has ever happened to me. No kidding. Those of you who have read my previous blogs will know that what I'm saying is BIG. However I have survived. For 3 months it was pureed food. Revolting. That experience has taught me nothing good. And I paid a freakin' fortune, went private and trusted the oral surgeon with my life. 

Anyway I must move on. It's not healthy to dwell on negative experiences.

So where am I now? I'm off to the UK in a few weeks and it's the big birthday and I'd like to go back well if I can. So I've got a decision to make. Do I go on Methotrexate or tough it out? I think I'll do a blood test first and see how bad things are. 
Oh lupus you are so mean and not a good friend but somehow you keep hanging around even when I've unfriended you.

But hell I'm ALIVE and being alive is good fun. For a girl with such a badly behaved form of lupus I've even surprised myself. 

I've gone from this 8 years ago....


To this just recently